faded

a soft voice whispers in my ear, lift me out of my despair

the most gentle hands hold me close, just help me numb the pain

all i feel is nothing

a cold empty body,

the hollow beating of my heart

i am fading and it feels like nothing.

i have no imprint on this earth,

where is the proof of my life?

everything grazes against my skin, but what can i feel?

noises pound inside my brain, but what can i hear?

memories of you flash before my eyes, but i am blind.

its a beautiful feeling, because it isnt anything.

i am fading in and out but maybe i like it that way.

i dont want to live sometimes, but i do.

i dont want to die, but i will.

storms make me go numb, they fill me with emptiness.

but in the eye of the hurricane i am calm and i can breathe.

i can see the blue sky and release the air ive been holding in for too long.

fading in and out.

xx, seiji