beyond

there is such a big world out there

so many people to meet, places to travel

a million doors waiting to be discovered

and so so many thousands of windows wanting to be thrown open.

why am i sitting in this dark room, nursing a broken heart?

why am i sleeping in, hoping it will numb the pain?

why am i laying around, crying softly for the people i love?

all the lights are off, all the sights are closed off, all the noises cease.

i am missing a huge world, and its missing me.

death stares at me and maybe thats what scares me.

i want to lock myself up, that way nothing can touch me.

i want to lock up the people i care about so nothing can scar them.

but what i must realize is that scars are beautiful.

just help me go beyond, beyond those doors.

unlock them. let me step out, dont hold me back.

watch as i take my first deep breath of fresh air.

xx, seiji